To Sleep or Not to Sleep...

Well, my little girl is now 6 months and 2 weeks old.  Time goes by so fast!  And my son is a full blown toddler, 21 months to be exact.  They are both so dang cute!  Both so beautiful, so full of life and energy, it drives me crazy!  Each of them are in their own routine, which is beginning to line up in certain ways.  Eden is now eating at breakfast, lunch and dinner time with the family and has a "snack" feeding before bed, and doing great.  She LOVES her cereal, fruits and veggies!


We recently had her 6 month check up and she did wonderful, shots and all.  But I was talking to my pediatrician (who I absolutely love) about her nighttime sleep because she was only sleeping 7-8 hours and would often wake up unwrapped, arms flailing everywhere, around 3:45 in the morning and that's just not right!  What he told me was great, "maybe she's telling you something mom".  It's time to stop wrapping her and let her begin to sleep on her own without the wrap.  So I tried it and sure enough, with some warm jammies, classical music, her giraffe and cozy blanket she's sleeping much better through the night - 11 hours straight - I knew she could do it!  


I was sitting here this morning quietly listening to the birds, I so love early summer mornings, but realized that babies are such responders.  They so respond to us as parents, whatever it is, its incredible.  But Eden woke herself (and me) at 3:45am and I had a choice to make when I went in to check on her.   I could either go in and feed her to keep from waking the others up or I could go in with resolve and resettle her (I pat her back, turned on her music and ocean sounds, gave her the binky, re-covered her in her blanket) and leave her to go back to bed so she learns that 3:45am is NOT breakfast time.  She fussed for a little bit, even cried a bit, but you know what, she fell back asleep and no one else was awakened.  I was pleasantly surprised.  All my concerns about waking the others up, will she go back to bed, totally answered.  She responded!  


Fighting for sleep and babies finding their way into family routine is a wonderful and worthwhile thing - I choose...TO SLEEP :o)

Rocked

Well, I'm not really sure where to begin.  I've recently read and watched some things that have rocked me: an article from the Economist called 'Gendercide' (this article is about the selective murdering of baby girls that takes place every day around the world but particularly in Asia for the sheer fact that they are no good financially to the family they've been born to) and the recent film, Precious (an Indie film about the struggles of a young black girl growing up in the inner city of Harlem in the late 1980's).  These are two VERY raw things that I encourage you to read and watch only if you want to grow in having a burden for the things that I believe are on God's heart.  I struggled with both of them and whether I would write about them.  I found myself asking "what good does it do to know some of what's going on but not be able to make a difference in those situations?"  Just because I know something doesn't mean I've done something to change it.  

As I was thinking about all this, I was realizing its ok to struggle, we need to struggle through things, to be uncomfortable, to be burdened.  Its through the struggle that a passion gets birthed, its through the struggle that intercession flows, from a deep and real heart cry to see things change for the better.  Part of my struggle was for the church - we need to know what's going on, and I believe we are waking up more and more to the cries all around us.  

I want to live rocked.  I want to pray out of being rocked.  I want to love out of being rocked - by the real things, by the Real One.  If you're like me, it can be overwhelming trying to figure out how to make a difference when there's so much need but we can't undervalue and underestimate the power of our passionate, true prayers.  And we can't underestimate the power of loving in our every day lives.  As Mother Teresa said, "Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired."  May we love with out getting tired!

Distractions

Ok, so I'm supposed to be working on what I will be sharing tomorrow morning at our Home Group Leaders training (ministering out of our marriage, one of my favorite subjects) and all I can think of are distractions!!!  Like this blog!  And figuring it all out :o)

I feel like there is so much inside me regarding this subject (marriage), it is one of my greatest passions but how to get it all out onto paper in a format that I can share on, that is the challenge...Lord, help me :o)  They say you don't know something until you can teach it, and I know that I know some things from these last 7 years of my life (and I have MUCH more yet to learn).    Why is it that when you sit down to do something, like prep a teaching, you get SO distracted?!  Well, here's one distraction I'm getting out of my system.  I have to focus my mind and only look at one thing at a time and give my attention only to that thing until I've finished it, otherwise I get overwhelmed and don't know where to begin.  

So I'm going to blog a few thoughts and then get back to it...

Today I was getting Aidan, my oldest, ready for a nap.  I wondered if he'd go down easy or fight it for an hour or two as has been the case over the last few weeks.  You see, he turned 18 months this March 2nd (it goes by so fast) and all of a sudden, it felt like over-night, he changed.  I thought to myself, "where did my sweet little boy go?"  The one who loved his naps and never really had an attitude, who never said "no".  That sounds terrible, but let me explain: my sweet little baby had changed and had now become a little boy, just like that!  I wanted to cry but was happy all at the same time.  He now had an opinion, well at least now he was exerting it, or rather, his will.  

I am finding that a large part of motherhood is all about change and being flexible - it is a process of constant discovery.  Like naps for instance.  Aidan has gone from napping at 11:30am to now, I've finally discovered, napping at 1:30pm.  He had been fighting his naps all of a sudden so I tried something different, I started putting him down later and it worked!  I love it when that happens!

Anyways, I truly love this new stage he is in, and I am enjoying the stage my newest is in too.  I never want to wish anything away.  Toddlerhood has so many joys and Dustin and I have been enjoying every one of them!

Spending It All

Where to begin...

Well, I have to say that I was pretty hesitant at first to set up a blog, for thoughts like: "what do I have to say that anyone would want to read? What if they don't like what I write about?" I am a very honest person, at least I try to be, and the thought of blogging for the "whole world" to see is very vulnerable to me. This was my inner conversation, along with thoughts like: "I don't think I have time for another thing, this all seems overwhelming to me." But, now that its done, I'm actually excited!

I decided to do a blog after being encouraged by some friends of mine (Jonan & Ash, you know who you are ;o)) I don't consider myself to be anything great, least of all a writter. But, I do have a great desire to share my life with others and if in doing that I can be an encouragement to someone than I will be very pleased.

Why, this name? I would have to say that this is the motto I try to live my life after. I want to spend everything I have in every moment I have - my life, my love, my energy! I long to live completely sold out with out fear or inhibition and to see others do the same!

A life verse of mine is Philippians 3:12-14

^"12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. ¹³Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, ¹⁴I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

So, here's to the beginning of Spending It All.